Hi LONGGONE, your distress and fears are very real and logical - because that's how we've been programmed to feel if we start to question this despicable shower of charlatans. As others have said, no disciplinary can be taken if you just fade - so the key is not to give them anything which "justifies" any action. That is the #1 rule when fading - say nothing to incriminate yourself.
Being impelled not to lie, many faders will utter a truth which hangs them.
There's no need to lie to anyone - and there's no need to discuss things with anyone!
If you adapt the following to suit yourself, you have no need to feel guilty about anything you say or do.
Just live your life according to your conscience and rules - happy that you are doing the right thing. Fading will get a lot easier the more you memorise your "conversation stoppers."
I wish you the very best as you progress on your journey.
How To Respond to Interrogators:
"Thank you for your concerns brothers, but there's nothing private & personal which I wish to discuss with anyone at the moment, but I appreciate your motives and concern. If things change, I will definitely call you."
Conversation Stoppers:
1) "We only want to come and give you encouragement." = Simply repeat the response above!
2) "But how can we help you if you won't talk to us?" = "I'm sure the Elders have private & personal situations which they wouldn't discuss with others, I'm no different!"
3) Are you refusing to talk with us? = "No, as I've already said, I just don't want to discuss things right now. I'll call you when the time is right."
If they persist with their interrogation, just say 'thanks', and walk away! They can't punish you for ending a conversation!
Repeat any/all of the above to anyone who tries to extract information from you, because the Elders will get someone you trust to try and get information out of you!
You have a P.M.